2dae is sat and i juz found out tat i do not have any piano class 2dae..or sae i 4got abt it..wth..i have been waitin 4 my cher 2 come then she nvr come, then my sis told me tat 2dae like dun have lesson..OMG wad am i doin man!! haiz..i am feeling troubled coz is like everythin is not i wanted it to be..my class is still quite fun, but people r ignoring me..i dun koe y..is like i have been treated as someone they hated alot..i juz wan to feel happy when in sch n in class by havin d class as my gd frenz, but d prob is can't. d class is not wad it is b4..i have been treated as a nail in d eye. why is dis happenning to me? am i a person who is being hated so much? am i a hyprocrite? am i a evil person? am i someone where people wans to get rid of? am i someone who is not fit to have any frenz? tell me. someone tell me, i wana koe. i juz wan happiness from making frenz. i rely love dis class alot, but people r tellin me tat i am not welcome in dis class at all. why is dis so? dis makes me feel troubled. well people hu read my blog will thik tat im lying, a hyprocrite..tat wad ever i sae is not true n will b cursing me..but let me tell u people, wadever i do in sch or class is myself..my real self..i canot take it anymore, d wae u people treat me..y muz i show a fake side of myself when me is me..i dun care if others talk bad abt me n u people believe, as long as i feel tat im myself. this is happenning again, everywhere i go, people will sae bad abt me..even in secondary sch..there were rumours tat i backstab my frenz n they actually almost fell out wif me..now d same thing is comin again. the wae u people treat me in sch makes me feel very awkard n dun koe wad 2 do. but frm now on, i will b myself and juz prove to u people tat im b4 n will alwaes b myself. i have decided tat i have to be strong n stand up justice for myself..even if u people ignore me, i will still stand up 4 myself n not let u people look down..i rely treasure dis friendship alot, but u people r tryin to tell me tat im not fit 2 be ur fren n thik tat i did sth bad bhind u people. but let me tell u people, i did nth which is against my conscious. even if i did without me realising it, it is not unintentionally. i koe wadever i sae now may cause more trouble in sch, but i admit im a straight forward person and alwaes offend people without knowing it. but dis is me, i can't change it, regardless how many times i wan to change dis bad habit. i dun koe if u people r reading dis blog entry now, but even if u people dun read it, hope u can sense it tat wadever i sae now is from d bottom of my heart n im rely sincere abt it..u may all thik tat im bein hyprocrite, but seriously, im not. i actually have been thiking alot b4 writin dis entry n saein everything out..d previous entries i have not been writin abt it is coz im tryin not to create more trouble, but now tat i have written everything out, i koe tat more trouble will b comin 2wards me. but if i rely have offended u people without knowing, n u all do not wan 2 tell me..i will sae from d bottom of my heart n really sincere im sorry, please forgive me for the wrong that i have done. i rely hope for wonderful frenz and happy class without any trouble going on. u all may not have bothered to come and read my blog entries at all, but people hu read dis entry, hope can help me tell them tat i rely would like to be frenz wif them again even though the friendship may not be like before, but will also b happy. i juz wan to stay happy and unforgettable during dis 16 wks so that i will remember dis memorable moment and prove to others tat my class is a wonderful class. i guess u people know hu im referring to..im not tryin 2 offend u people 2 cause more trouble for myself. Labels: why is this going on? why am i being treated like tat? its making me feel sad n uneasy. someone plz tell me..
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