I hate being the eldest! Everything also ask me to do, then if nvr do properly, juz scold me. I only have 2 hands and 2 legs, but it seems tat i have alot of hands and legs. I am a person hu canot multi-task and yet, seems tat i can. I juz hate it! 2dae suppose to be a happy day coz its CNY eve, but i am not happy at all. Frm afternoon when i wake up, i am being asked to do things until now, n nvr call my siblings to do. Until when parents came back, then ask them to help.
N i hate the way my bro do things, he nvr washes his bowl after eating n even if i ask him to do, he juz don't care n watch tv. Until when my parents came back juz now, then he go wash. N he still ask me to fuck off. wth! i nvr offend him rite. fucker!
Dis yr rely make me not happy, thot tat i will have a happy day during cny eve coz can eat my favourite steamboat and was looking forward to it, but now im not, i juz treat it as a normal dinner and not gona open my mouth to talk. Juz eat!
Tats y sometimes even though i bear a grudge against my siblings, but i envy them coz my parents will not thik of them when wan sth to be done. They will only thik of me and call me or my phone. So when i see them calling, i would not feel like picking up their phone.
When sth went wrong, they will blame me say its my fault, nvr set good example, say the things i do will influence my siblings. But tats me, i canot do anything abt it.
Usually, i will thik of leaving this house and go to a place whereby will not care abt these things and juz wan to stay carefree. Even though my frenz always see me happy, but in fact i have alot of family troubles which i dun koe who to talk to coz it will rely make me cry, like juz now. :(
hmm juz hope today will pass quickly and 2mr will come so will get my red packets and also go out wif my frenz soon. :)
HAPPY NEW YR! :)
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